Sep 26, 2008@12:54 PM
Hey dairy(!)
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Do you believed in this whole wide world,we have 7 face look alike?
Sometymes i dont believed but at tymes when i was walking along the street
confirm i will saw some faces look lyke hyme lah oi(!)
or it jus my imagination?Idk.
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Iam tired of pretending.
Iam tired of lying.
Iam tired of saying iam okie but actually i dont.
The true is iam not okey at all,all this while i was pretending to be happy but deep down my heart only gods now how i feel.Iam really2 tired of lying to people,but i dont want to make them worry.
Each tyme when people asked me,am i okey or not?
i will reply
"Aku tkde papelah,aku okey.Krg tkyah risau lah"
But the true is
"Mmg aku tk okey,mcm mane aku nk okey klau orang yang paling aku sayang dah tinggal kn aku,tkpelah cuma allah je tahu perasaan aku.Aku tknk krg risau."
Iam sowie,i can't help it.
At tymes i can be very stubborn like now.It just so hard to let it go,sometymes i nearly can forget hyme but when i was about to forget hyme,he will appear in my dreams.
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Someone have asked me befort,what actually i want?
The true is i myself dont knoe what i want,all i knoe is that i have to stop hurting people feeling and stop lying to them.Ya,mayb iam not ready to be in LOVE so thats why iam behaving this way or am i scared his place will be replace in my small heart?
Idk.
Iam sowie once again,i have to pretand that iam okey so that people won't knoe that iam feeling sad.
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God have given me his heart for the last tyme,but i take it for granted.
I play his heart,I dont knoe how to apprecaites and treasure hyme
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Now god have taken hyme away from me,than i realised all this while iam soooo in LOVE with hyme .He is so importance in my life.
I still remember his promises.
He promise me that he will be there when I graduate from my secondary school,but now iam going to graduate soon but he is not there to share my joy.
I may look strong outside but inside my heart iam just a timed girl who scared to face the reality.
Iam just the girl who can't easily let go of the past .
loves,
siti monarita.
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